Second attemp trying to draw my dream girl.

She was girl I envion. I cant get her demeanor and face right. The colored image was my first attempt, the second on the right is my second attempt at drawing her. She was a woman i envison in my early teens. My ponetial soulmate was made into a whore because people didnt think she could change. What if i could of stopped her from defiling her flesh even more. Thats why i struggle with my friends and dad unbelieved. What if i could saved her. I was just going to speak to her about the thinsg I saw in my psychosis as a regular attendee . You never know. I would been with happy with whatever outcome if she said "i will continue to my job" i would of been content and and been happy i was freed