I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me

I'm 38 years old. Was married from 16 - 32 yrs old to an extremely abusive man. I've been in 3 relationships since.
1) I was the other woman, and had no idea. He is now happily married, to his then fiance. She forgave him. And he told me I never mattered.
2) Six months into the relationship, I learned after a call from the county hospital he wasn't just "off" but a legit schizophrenic.
3) Three days after quitting my job, moving to his town to move in with him, that he's an Internet whore.
So.. I'm 38 years old, and I've never been loved.

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Loretta78 · 46-50, F

I am sorry for all this where you´ve gone through.
I´ve made the same experience like you - only still more worst! And I am in the same age. I am 38 years old, too. I have survived my marriage anyhow, but sometimes I wonder now if it would have not been better that I would have been killed, because I´ve gone now 38 years through an absolutely loveless life. I´ve never been loved, but the memory of many bad experiences are troubling me. :-(