I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me

after 5 years of talking and sharing ideas and thoughts with each other you would think that that would be enough time time to know pretty much everything about someone,the day in day out email messages sharing ideas,but no i fell in love with someone and i fell hard i wanted her as you could say "more then life itself" this is someone that when we started talking was so bright and bubbly and someone that cared.as time went on the teasing started and i fell even harder for her,still caring.but as things got warmer things started to slack off on her end,as i put things into overdrive and tried so hard to get this to work. things got further apart,this is someone i would have gave up everything i owed for this woman to me so beautiful in my eyes i couldn't stand to see me without her,in my eyes she was an angel so lovely in every way possible to me there couldn't have been a more perfect woman in my eyes.the day came when she said no interested after 5 years of daily chat and messaging and texts it broke me into a thousand pieces i would cry myself to sleep only to get up and cry more,during this time i wasn't eating anything and only drinking a few sips of water at a time.all i thought about was did i do?,i realized later on i didn't do anything i was only being used as a stepping stone,this one reason i have trust issues with people,it's just not worth it to open up to just anyone unless you really get to know like i did but still it failed,which brings me to a thought about broken heart syndrome if it is real or not,i for believe it is real after what i went through that was a very bad time in my life and still is to this day if i don't try to stop the memories.but even then it hard to do so,i even went through the process of sending packages to her to show i cared about her.so to all that have had a broken heart i am sorry you had one cause i have too.my thoughts are with each of that have had this experience in life and hope you all feel better soon.🙂