I don’t like posting on this day because it makes me depressed

But then, my boyfriend has to go and do something real sweet and special for me… Like, really sweet. Like, “you bastard” level sweet. It stirs enough of a reaction in me that here I am posting about it. I’m not sad today, but really happy for some fucked up reason. Fuck me, I don’t deserve this man. I don’t. 😭