I never betrayed someone in my life . In fact I'm the other way and you can get yourself into a lot of shit being that way too .
I'm usually these days better off on my own .
A lot of the attractions that I had left me and it wasn't by choice . It was when things go horribly wrong and you end up empty relying on others for your happiness and fail and doing it again and fail .
The moral of the story is you loose hope with life that's why a God of your own understanding is very important cause your higher power never leaves you down .
You be left empty if your depending on others for your happiness and guess what and it's sad to say it but it happened me with every department in my life .
Do you know how I know all of this ?
Cause I went to take my own life 3 times in 6 weeks , loosing a lot of weight, best friend died in the mean time of that time .
I couldn't rely on people cause every time someone or somebody would pull away it way a sign of shock and Emptiness came into my soul and that was the time we're I depended on my higher power for happiness
There's no other way or else you be left suicidal
