Today I treated a refugee from Mali, and my heart hurt because I thought of the millions like him in the world.

And I felt very depressed and had the urge to apply again and volunteer with the NGO.

But I have loved ones now who count on me. I won't be only risking my own life and plans. And I am not sure an intention from desperation and despair is wise. I might relapse into the mental state I suffered for years, unable to accept helplessness.

I am sad for anyone who doesn't have the resources I have, the love, the hope and the care. And I wish I could fix it. I wish there was a way to absorb all the hurt in this cruel world.

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Moh1992 · 31-35, M

Here we have refugees lately from Syria , Yemen , Palestine and Sudan . I was in cairo streets walking looking at sudanese refugees face and it was painful for real . I can't forget the broken look of their face . I hate war and I curse it for the rest of my life.

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Moh1992 · 31-35, M

@Miram Thank you for calling me this name. You know I love it when somebody calls me this name. My past self flashed for instance to be honest. You know thinking through the life we got together makes me feel that we have something like a mental electrical circuit in common. May be because you are an ambidextrous and me is a leftie . I would never think of that we could made it better because I appreciate what we have already. Consider that since the first day I knew you I felt like starring . I never related to a person like that before. I could have made friends with anybody here or just leave the whole website but you glanced in my life and I really appreciate it. The only thing I regret is that I knew you while I was struggling. May be someone called Me before was a better person for you to know other than the monster I was since 2013 . I am hoping to calm down someday and not to be a source of pain to anybody anymore. I hope God and people who got depressed because of the state I was in be able to forgive me completely. I never meant to hurt them , I was triggered badly to experience things I haven't been through in my life before. I am looking forward to forgiving myself to and being easy to it. I really regret that people felt for me . I feel that I could take it all without involving people other than me . I think I would be better too. But it happened already كما لو لم يكن هناك مفر. I don't like to hurt anybody and I found that the unintentional hurt may be more painful sometimes than the intentional
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Miram · 31-35, F

@Moh1992 Do not worry about things and events that happened between us. In the grand scheme of things, whatever bad that occured was small and I have forgiven you long time ago. I care about you, your loved ones and I wish you nothing but joy. I do think we all met for a reason and I am deeply grateful for it. 🤍🤍 You are good person and a great doctor. And was many times a great friend.

Moh1992 · 31-35, M

@Miram Thank you 💌