I saw you……

I doubt you saw me but I saw you. The instant I did my heart stopped and the rush to flee ran through my body. How can I still have feelings for you knowing you don’t want me but my heart still beats for you? What a fool I am. I should stay away from places I know I might run into you, but alas, I can not.
When will these feelings cease?
When will I have peace from your ghost?
Why does my mind and heart hate me so?
You were not the best, you were fun but the lies started popping up. I knew they were lies but I let you tell them anyway.
What a fool I am.
I want to hate you, I should hate you, but I can not.

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