I Am Heartbroken Right Now

Life is unpredictable in ever possible way.I grew up with dreams and aspirations as big as anyone elses. I envied seeing adult living the life of their dream, getting married to a man who loves and looks after them, having children and so on. It never bothered me, it excited me, because I knew one day, it'll be my turn. But that little girl didn't know then what she was in for. I dont know why my friends and cousins married the life of their life while mine married some other girl. I dont know why everyone else around me got to raise children and I had to bury my only daughter when she was 3 weeks old. I grew a company worth millions of dollars, I live an a 3 million dollar house and I drive a Range Rover. Why am I numb? I should be happy. But, maybe he was my only aspiration and dream, and when I lost him, I lost myself. I lost every dream in my head and I lost all my faith.