I Am Heartbroken Right Now

Life is unpredictable in ever possible way.I grew up with dreams and aspirations as big as anyone elses. I envied seeing adult living the life of their dream, getting married to a man who loves and looks after them, having children and so on. It never bothered me, it excited me, because I knew one day, it'll be my turn. But that little girl didn't know then what she was in for. I dont know why my friends and cousins married the life of their life while mine married some other girl. I dont know why everyone else around me got to raise children and I had to bury my only daughter when she was 3 weeks old. I grew a company worth millions of dollars, I live an a 3 million dollar house and I drive a Range Rover. Why am I numb? I should be happy. But, maybe he was my only aspiration and dream, and when I lost him, I lost myself. I lost every dream in my head and I lost all my faith.

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JammieDodgerHeart · 26-30, F

You're only 18-21, plenty of life left live. Things don't always turn out the way we want to, but life has a way of putting us where we need to be. Try to focus on what you have than what you don't, how privileged you really are to have a life, that is not filled with horrible amounts of suffering, that you have health and opportunity and the ability to experience and think, we can always makes step to achieve our goals but I believe we can also learn to be happy where we are no, matter what, there's always something to be grateful for. Envy is a horrible emotion and I'm sure they'll be people who envy you too. But we are all different and have our own paths. We all have different paces too. Just because what you want is happening to someone else now, doesn't matter it won't ever happen to you either

I wouldn't rush into things like marriages at a young age too, just have fun, enjoy life, love, don't dwell on what isn't but what is

writingforlife6 · 22-25, F

Thanks for your comment, ive actually grown out of that age bracket now but I appreciate your inspiring words. @JammieDodgerHeart

JammieDodgerHeart · 26-30, F

@writingforlife6 so you are the same age as me? Still plenty of life to live. Nothing is wrong with you or your life, just sometimes we have a negative perspective. I know it's cliche but it's really how you look at things. Gratefulness is amazing to feel, we have so much we take for granted. We rush so much to get more than we have that we forget to appreciate what we do. Some self love and understanding is what we all need too, we shouldn't beat ourselves up for not reaching our goals but to be proud of where we are now :) you're welcome

Viqsteels · 26-30, F

I hope one day you receive the miracle of strength and hope.Atleast I have experienced the situation of shattered dreams and hopes but here I am with nothing but life though not as close as to yours.

writingforlife6 · 22-25, F

Thank you. I find strength in my pain. My life successes is the result of my pain. @Viqsteels

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