I Believe In Love
Never have i known such intense love... Sure, I've felt maybe there was something beyond the next ridge, somewhere along one of life's many switchbacks - only the guarding lodgepole pines, clacking against one another in tender laughter, knew the folly of the floundering soul lurching forth.
And then, strangely enough while my intention was to bed yet another wanton woman, I covertly reached out to my angel... The love who has remained in my shadows year after year for almost half my life.
'I'm IN LOVE with you,' I professed. 'I don't just love you.'
Stunned, my angel absorbed my words. As did I. There was no premeditation. They'd come in a rush of blissful awareness... My body tingled with the electrical current of euphoric epiphany.
The date ended... I pondered, then freaked a bit. Those words I just shared threatened to break the chains of my lips before, but now they had... and like bullets - once fired.... couldn't be retrieved.
The logistics coupled with my spoken truth created a wave of emotions that, at the fragile emotional tack I had been maintaining, threatened to swamp my soul in a sea of chaos.
So I set sail once again for the open port - promising respite from the storm. And of course the harbor I chose didn't. COULDN'T! Nor did the next.
Empty and more desolate than ever before, I silently begged my true love forgive me - see past my fears!
She did... And the love we've shared for years has blossomed with the richness only time and trust and passion of the most magnificent sort can nurture into such wondrous beauty.
Each day becomes an adventure of the heart. My spirit, stifled and stoned for decades, has reemerged from hiding with renewed awareness of the endless possibilities... The tune echoing in my soul swings to the sound of hope, passion, fulfillment.
It may all end tomorrow. Remnant memories remind me of chapters that didn't quite end as one would hope. But no matter...
Everything in me says to embrace those scars and stories, hurts and heroics...
But let this journey stand alone! Not another chapter.... No.
It's own masterpiece.
And then, strangely enough while my intention was to bed yet another wanton woman, I covertly reached out to my angel... The love who has remained in my shadows year after year for almost half my life.
'I'm IN LOVE with you,' I professed. 'I don't just love you.'
Stunned, my angel absorbed my words. As did I. There was no premeditation. They'd come in a rush of blissful awareness... My body tingled with the electrical current of euphoric epiphany.
The date ended... I pondered, then freaked a bit. Those words I just shared threatened to break the chains of my lips before, but now they had... and like bullets - once fired.... couldn't be retrieved.
The logistics coupled with my spoken truth created a wave of emotions that, at the fragile emotional tack I had been maintaining, threatened to swamp my soul in a sea of chaos.
So I set sail once again for the open port - promising respite from the storm. And of course the harbor I chose didn't. COULDN'T! Nor did the next.
Empty and more desolate than ever before, I silently begged my true love forgive me - see past my fears!
She did... And the love we've shared for years has blossomed with the richness only time and trust and passion of the most magnificent sort can nurture into such wondrous beauty.
Each day becomes an adventure of the heart. My spirit, stifled and stoned for decades, has reemerged from hiding with renewed awareness of the endless possibilities... The tune echoing in my soul swings to the sound of hope, passion, fulfillment.
It may all end tomorrow. Remnant memories remind me of chapters that didn't quite end as one would hope. But no matter...
Everything in me says to embrace those scars and stories, hurts and heroics...
But let this journey stand alone! Not another chapter.... No.
It's own masterpiece.
