I this new giy im talking to. But part of me is breaking. Walking away from the man i love with everything in me.

I wanted to marry a college gf but she didn't want kids (ever).. now she hates her life she never got married and has only her parents. She asked if she could stay with me and I sent not to my daughter is grown. She also has some abuse issues with drugs and alcohol.

"And he hurt me for years".... enough said, be thankful he isnt "coming after you" a.k.a. stringing you along.. you're worth being seen, being heard, and being elevated.. not broken down.

You should heal before you try using someone else to distract you from your fixation with a man who doesn't love you and is perpetually leading you on. Don't treat someone else the way you're allowing yourself to be treated, like second best. Like someone who isn't worthy of love,someone who is just convenient to satisfy a selfish need. Someone to exist as a perpetual option,a fall back.

Social anxiety can be a horrible thing.

You're not healed enough for moving on yet.

cant force one sided love