I’m sorry I always hurt myself so quickly in your place, in a manner of speaking

It’s not heslthy st all and there’s zero excuse for it. Not that it excuses anything, but I hate seeing you hurt, that it’s enough to make me have these outbursts. I can only apologize for adoring you. But I can also recognize that I don’t handle this as I should and can at least try to find better ways of coping with the pain. Please don’t blame yourself. This isn’t on you. I just have issues