Heavy attraction to man I never dated

Theres a man who absolutely stole my heart. I worked for him briefly and but due to my circumstances at the time I left because I didn’t want him to see me breaking down. Since I left him I cannot stop thinking about him. We never dated, but I always felt so heavily that there was a very strong connection between us. One I couldn’t explain. I never even so much as shook his hand, but yet there it was. Now it won’t go. And I feel like when looking for other men, I’m actually looking for another him or just him himself. I really don’t even know what he’s doing right now, I haven’t contacted him since the beginning of the year for my W-2 and I was even too scared to do that!
He has a company, and it has spread all over my city (especially on my side) and is doing very well. I figured if it’s fate and it’s meant to be, then eventually we will run into each other again just like the first time. I really don’t want to force anything.
But for now, how can I get back to myself? How do I move on? He’s the only man that’s ever made me feel beautiful and listened to without ever even saying much. I miss him dearly. I just want to have one more conversation with him…
How do I get over this? Ive tried google to try to help me understand why this could be happening. I think I have a bit of an understanding but the thoughts still won’t go away!