Heavy attraction to man I never dated

Theres a man who absolutely stole my heart. I worked for him briefly and but due to my circumstances at the time I left because I didn’t want him to see me breaking down. Since I left him I cannot stop thinking about him. We never dated, but I always felt so heavily that there was a very strong connection between us. One I couldn’t explain. I never even so much as shook his hand, but yet there it was. Now it won’t go. And I feel like when looking for other men, I’m actually looking for another him or just him himself. I really don’t even know what he’s doing right now, I haven’t contacted him since the beginning of the year for my W-2 and I was even too scared to do that!
He has a company, and it has spread all over my city (especially on my side) and is doing very well. I figured if it’s fate and it’s meant to be, then eventually we will run into each other again just like the first time. I really don’t want to force anything.
But for now, how can I get back to myself? How do I move on? He’s the only man that’s ever made me feel beautiful and listened to without ever even saying much. I miss him dearly. I just want to have one more conversation with him…
How do I get over this? Ive tried google to try to help me understand why this could be happening. I think I have a bit of an understanding but the thoughts still won’t go away!

Edashh2399 · 26-30, F

This comment is truly so beautiful. I think the same, I think that a lot of people think love or care for someone is just disposable and that you can just move on, like nothing… I feel like they’re denying a lot of things.
I have a horrible fear of rejection, that’s why it’s so hard to make the first move to contact him.

black4white · 56-60, M

@Edashh2399 just remember at the end of it all either you try or you don’t …even rejection is not as bad as you believe it to be because the sun is going to come up tomorrow one way or another…this I assure you :) good luck

I would rather try and get rejected then never try at all

Northwest · M

One way crushes are fairly common, but some people get stuck in them. The answer may be in understanding your family of origin and will often require a conversation with a therapist to help clear up.