I just realized I never ended up with you

I just realized, I didn't really end up with you, I understand it's just that I don't want to heal, I unconsciously always look for you in other men, that's when I'm comfortable and happy, I feel that I'm with you, when other men try to approach me I always stay away from those who are not like you...
I know, I just don't want to heal...
With you or not, you always have a special place in my heart.