Irrational thoughts

So. Infatuation with a person should die out after a while with no communication and no mutual friends. But here I am. A year later still thinking about a man I've never met in person. We were both going through divorce. And somehow conversations led to "I love you". We blocked each other. We stopped talking. I didn't want to have any influence on weather or not his marriage indeed went through divorce or rebounded. I didn't need the distraction of some whirlwind romance. I told him I wouldn't wait. I would date. I'm not holding out for a maybe. But no man is him. Every man makes me think of him, sometimes I ache at how much our conversations satisfied me. We checked in every few months. I really just want to forget about him altogether. Everything about him spoke to everything in me. Smh. Some kind of obsession ig. I miss him bad. Any tips?

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Lilnonames · F

Message him or u will always regret the one u let go

MizzO · 31-35, F

@Lilnonames I know what the out come would be. I wouldn't hear from him. I'd feel stupid my gut would reach out of me. And weeks later as I start to try and let him go he will get in contact with me. Encourage me to date again. Live again. Saying I deserved every happiness in the world but that he loved me and intends to conquer every obstacle that would keep him from me. And then he'd talk to me for a few days before disappearing again. His divorce should be handled by February but even then who knows what his life would look like. Ok first hand how messy things can get. Ik I just need to move on somehow.