I just wanna love tbh. I just wanna make love.

I’m tired of society and expectations. The brutal dishonesty and stupid games. Manipulation and fear. Arguing over opinions and never knowing the facts. Never trying to understand.

I just want that one guy that sees me deeply and would never hurt me on purpose. One man with a big heart that will let me love him and give to him safely. Let me love him fully. Stay in bed all day pleasing each other. I have so much. I built a whole life from ashes. A beautiful life. People think I’m a pessimist but then why would I continue to hope, to grow and build and become a better human, better Mom and better lover. When will someone truly see me?

And yes, I love myself, to those who don’t know me or what I’ve been through. I put in the work on myself.

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TallMtnMedic · M

I get it, society is a pain in the ass. Once we accept that its easier. At some point we would think that some grow out of dishonesty and head games, but we know better, some just cannot get away from it - they refuse to grow up.

There is that one person that sees you, really sees you deeply, if he hasnt been near you yet, he will be. I tell myself that too, its easy to say it about women too, but damn its so hard sometimes.

Building a foundation, a solid one, and building a life from there, thats a great goal. It can be achieved, will be...

Peope think im sarcastic bc i enjoy it, it's actually a defense mechanism for me. Every so often - rarely - some soul takes the time to peel it back, i miss that.

You're an amazing person, you will get what you want and he will be so much more as he will gaze at you knowing you are so much more that he hoped for.

BrokenAbyss

@TallMtnMedic it makes me hysterical. I can only laugh when I start to cry at how I’ve done so well on my own, but I’m nothing in this society. Nothing to anyone except my son and that’s hard to sit with sometimes. I’ll never give up on love, I can’t, it just hurts rn to be nothing.

TallMtnMedic · M

@BrokenAbyss I think you mean more to others than you know. We're always hardest in ourselves.

But you have your son. I was a single father of two sons. Social life? Nope. I was lonely, its a serious pain. Then i was stationed overseas away from them. Dispair was a thing.