I just wanna love tbh. I just wanna make love.

I’m tired of society and expectations. The brutal dishonesty and stupid games. Manipulation and fear. Arguing over opinions and never knowing the facts. Never trying to understand.

I just want that one guy that sees me deeply and would never hurt me on purpose. One man with a big heart that will let me love him and give to him safely. Let me love him fully. Stay in bed all day pleasing each other. I have so much. I built a whole life from ashes. A beautiful life. People think I’m a pessimist but then why would I continue to hope, to grow and build and become a better human, better Mom and better lover. When will someone truly see me?

And yes, I love myself, to those who don’t know me or what I’ve been through. I put in the work on myself.

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Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

It always happens when you least expect it.
That's what happened when I met my , now ex, wife.
I had just suffered another failed attempt at a long term relationship.
I was about 34 and finally decided that my long time dream of ever having children of my own to raise like I wished I had been raised was gone.
About two days after that a buddy of mine asked me to go to a band audition with him.
We walked into the room and BAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shit you not it was maddening love the second her eyes met mine. Well for me.
I moved heaven and earth to get into a position to have her in a circle that I was also included in.
Never chased a woman like that in my whole life.
I manipulated people and joined a band I didn't need another of just to be in her presence.
It took me about three months to finally twist and turn time and space so I had a chance to get to know her.
Well anyway I got my kids finally.
But what I was attempting to show was it happens when your not looking for it to.
Maybe try to relax. Take some guitar lessons.
Distract yourself from the constant reminder that you are not where you want to be at this moment.
Maybe it will happen for you like it did for me.

BrokenAbyss

@Dainbramadge Aw thank you for sharing your beautiful story. How sweet of you to persist for love ❤️

I’m 38, single mom with a dead fam. I have lots of meaningful hobbies, I suck at guitar I’m a percussionist 😆, and I exercise daily, take care of my son and I on my own. I do as much as I can on a daily basis to keep us happy and healthy. It’s been that way for seven years. I’ve met some users, but that doesn’t last long. Being a kind, caring person is natural to me. My son’s to the age I can only gush over him so much 😂 I’m a lover, I need to love.

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BrokenAbyss

@Dainbramadge shhhhh I’m not supposed to be here 😆

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

@BrokenAbyss That's so funny because I suck at doing that.
It doesn't matter how well or long I have known someone if they change their name and avatar they are lost to me for ever. LOL

BrokenAbyss

@Dainbramadge SW deleted my account for exposing a perv/jerk. Rules are rules I guess but he deserved it.

Thanks for remembering me 😆

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

@BrokenAbyss Wait what???? Not the TacoBell stuff was it????

BrokenAbyss

@Dainbramadge I don’t know what happened with tacobell… what happened???

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

@BrokenAbyss He made a joke comment on something you had wrote in seriousness.
You wrote a post about him doing it.
I'm pretty sure that is what I was talking about at least. LOL
But wait he wasn't a perv. ... maybe a jerk.
Hell I ain't slept in four days so I could be confusing myself. :-)

BrokenAbyss

@Dainbramadge Nope. I never had an issue with tacobell.

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

@BrokenAbyss Huh.
Well then I guess I musta missed something juicy.

BrokenAbyss

@Dainbramadge Nah, just a man that pretended for a long time that he was a caring person, then he got drunk, shared his dick pics and I guess was embarrassed so he started being a super jerk to me.

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

@BrokenAbyss OMG!!!!!
People are some strange critters at times.
Was he embarrassed because he shared or because of what he shared? LOL
Wait... that didn't sound right.
But I already wrote it and LOL'ed it so guess that's a done deal. :-)

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