I just wanna love tbh. I just wanna make love.

I’m tired of society and expectations. The brutal dishonesty and stupid games. Manipulation and fear. Arguing over opinions and never knowing the facts. Never trying to understand.

I just want that one guy that sees me deeply and would never hurt me on purpose. One man with a big heart that will let me love him and give to him safely. Let me love him fully. Stay in bed all day pleasing each other. I have so much. I built a whole life from ashes. A beautiful life. People think I’m a pessimist but then why would I continue to hope, to grow and build and become a better human, better Mom and better lover. When will someone truly see me?

And yes, I love myself, to those who don’t know me or what I’ve been through. I put in the work on myself.

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Miram · 31-35, F

People think you are a pessimist? You're no pessimist based on what I know of you so far. It is your fire for life that makes them burn.

BrokenAbyss

@Miram Thank you 🫂

I’m not afraid to face my shadows. I’m in-tune with my dark side and it’s deep so I’m not as inclined to over positivity because it feels off balance. I suppose that looks pessimistic. I don’t know how people form opinions without talking to me, or knowing me, that would take time. You know how impatient people fill in the gaps with their own assumptions and insecurities before they’ve even listened? I feel trapped in their opinions. I can’t budge them. It’s not how I feel about myself at all. I feel full of love ❤️ I know that scares people. Just want one person to see me. Just one ❤️