Love and its many permutations
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I wanted to write on this subject for a while... however I felt there was a lil bit more for me to comprehend before starting.
By the time the end of this evening had come around I felt as though I had eperienced the catalyst I had been waiting for in order for me to begin.
Hmmm now to actually start 😁
Ive realised something about myself.. its that when I love someone, beginning with the men in my past. I always love them .. I look back and think yes it may have been many many moons ago .
But I loved these men through & through I let them go ..because not always will one on one relationships last forever.. but on meeting them & sharing a part of my life with them - they stirred a flame of love which never went a way 🔥
A poignant moment a few years ago came when at the funeral of my first husbands mother ( up until then more or less he had never forgiven me for leaving) barely spoke to me for many years.
Yet I went to pay my respects. When the service was over he burst through the doors and headed directly to me he buried himself into me sobbing his heart out .
I held him until he was done . Although I could have put money on it ..that I would have been the last person he would have turned to that day.
It then struck me that although I had never had the opportunity to say it to him again in some 30 yrs.
He knew I left , but would always love him ..& care forever for his wellbeing.
The same for 2 & 3 .
The reasons I felt complelled to write about everlasting love ❤ more recently .
The phenomena became more real to me ..& perplexed me for some time.
In that in the last 2 years I met three other men.
Not just any men they are each chosen from the ten's of men where our paths had crossed.
Only these men individually I feel an unmeasured love for each of them too.
I'm certain they each know .. that it is feelings ,a love which will unlikely dissapate , slow , or ever really go away. Even if like im my past they or I do.
I hope to be to the end with one of them ..& for the other two ,I wish them more love ..eternal happiness with a female who will see in them the special qualities that touched my ❤ heart.
Every so often like today ..I cant help but check in with them just an hello , with a thought to their happiness & well being.
Love and its many permutations ...
I wanted to write on this subject for a while... however I felt there was a lil bit more for me to comprehend before starting.
By the time the end of this evening had come around I felt as though I had eperienced the catalyst I had been waiting for in order for me to begin.
Hmmm now to actually start 😁
Ive realised something about myself.. its that when I love someone, beginning with the men in my past. I always love them .. I look back and think yes it may have been many many moons ago .
But I loved these men through & through I let them go ..because not always will one on one relationships last forever.. but on meeting them & sharing a part of my life with them - they stirred a flame of love which never went a way 🔥
A poignant moment a few years ago came when at the funeral of my first husbands mother ( up until then more or less he had never forgiven me for leaving) barely spoke to me for many years.
Yet I went to pay my respects. When the service was over he burst through the doors and headed directly to me he buried himself into me sobbing his heart out .
I held him until he was done . Although I could have put money on it ..that I would have been the last person he would have turned to that day.
It then struck me that although I had never had the opportunity to say it to him again in some 30 yrs.
He knew I left , but would always love him ..& care forever for his wellbeing.
The same for 2 & 3 .
The reasons I felt complelled to write about everlasting love ❤ more recently .
The phenomena became more real to me ..& perplexed me for some time.
In that in the last 2 years I met three other men.
Not just any men they are each chosen from the ten's of men where our paths had crossed.
Only these men individually I feel an unmeasured love for each of them too.
I'm certain they each know .. that it is feelings ,a love which will unlikely dissapate , slow , or ever really go away. Even if like im my past they or I do.
I hope to be to the end with one of them ..& for the other two ,I wish them more love ..eternal happiness with a female who will see in them the special qualities that touched my ❤ heart.
Every so often like today ..I cant help but check in with them just an hello , with a thought to their happiness & well being.
Love and its many permutations ...
