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Love and its many permutations

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I wanted to write on this subject for a while... however I felt there was a lil bit more for me to comprehend before starting.

By the time the end of this evening had come around I felt as though I had eperienced the catalyst I had been waiting for in order for me to begin.

Hmmm now to actually start 😁

Ive realised something about myself.. its that when I love someone, beginning with the men in my past. I always love them .. I look back and think yes it may have been many many moons ago .

But I loved these men through & through I let them go ..because not always will one on one relationships last forever.. but on meeting them & sharing a part of my life with them - they stirred a flame of love which never went a way 🔥

A poignant moment a few years ago came when at the funeral of my first husbands mother ( up until then more or less he had never forgiven me for leaving) barely spoke to me for many years.

Yet I went to pay my respects. When the service was over he burst through the doors and headed directly to me he buried himself into me sobbing his heart out .

I held him until he was done . Although I could have put money on it ..that I would have been the last person he would have turned to that day.

It then struck me that although I had never had the opportunity to say it to him again in some 30 yrs.

He knew I left , but would always love him ..& care forever for his wellbeing.

The same for 2 & 3 .

The reasons I felt complelled to write about everlasting love ❤ more recently .

The phenomena became more real to me ..& perplexed me for some time.

In that in the last 2 years I met three other men.
Not just any men they are each chosen from the ten's of men where our paths had crossed.

Only these men individually I feel an unmeasured love for each of them too.

I'm certain they each know .. that it is feelings ,a love which will unlikely dissapate , slow , or ever really go away. Even if like im my past they or I do.

I hope to be to the end with one of them ..& for the other two ,I wish them more love ..eternal happiness with a female who will see in them the special qualities that touched my ❤ heart.

Every so often like today ..I cant help but check in with them just an hello , with a thought to their happiness & well being.

Love and its many permutations ...
FrozenWasteland · 61-69, M Best Comment
I think love -- real love -- is something that comes largely unbidden and rarely, if ever, leaves. At least I don't think I have ever stopped loving someone.

Your heartfelt story brings to mind something about my first love that I have never been able to figure out. Her family and mine were friends and we fell in love when we were 15. It didn't last very long. It ended very badly, for reasons I never understood when we were 18. I largely avoided her after that. She married and moved away and I didn't see her or have any contact with her for over 15 years.

The next time I saw her was at her mother's funeral. I was there because of the family friendship, not because of her, but at one point I saw her standing alone and quietly walked over to her and simply said "I'm so sorry". She fell into my arms, sobbing and clinging to me while I held her. After many minutes, she composed herself and we talked about unimportant things for a little while, we said goodbye and she turned and walked away. We never spoke again.

But if she ever needed me, I would still be there as fast as a plane could carry me. I guess love is like that.
Kae20 · 56-60, FVIP
@FrozenWasteland 🙂 A beautiful illustration of ❤️

Which echos what I am meaning to say thank you

OldBrit · 61-69, M
About 10 years or so ago I bumped into my first every serious gf/crush/love.

Our brief history. She was a few years older than me. I was 15 when we became involved. We were both at our local church and had known each other since we were little kids but then there was that moment and we were no longer just childhood acquaintances. She was 17/18 at the time. We were an item for about a year then she had to move away, college called (she became a nurse) and her foster parents who'd agreed to keep her after she turned 16 were moving away as well. We wrote a couple of letters to each other but we both moved on as you do.

Anyway I was asked to join a Facebook group to do with our old junior school - I have a long long association with that place even ending up being Chair of Governors for a number of years. I joined on there and posted some stuff about where the school currently was, changes etc. long standing staff and what had happened to them - it was prompted by our longest serving staff member (a Polish immigrant from just after WW2) sadly passing away after only a couple of years full retirement.

Not long after that Caroline messaged me and we had a long chat about her life, kids, grandkids now etc. We might have had to go different routes but never lost the bond we had from then.
Kae20 · 56-60, FVIP
@OldBrit aww that is so lovely, thanks for sharing x
I agree. I never learned to unlove someone either.
Kae20 · 56-60, FVIP
@Mamapolo2016 No I doubt when our ❤️ genuinely feels love it rarely backtracks on itself .

Whenever it does ..it may have just been an infatuation.
PTCdresser57 · 61-69, M

 
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