@AuRevoir i know.. the moment you feel.. *this is so great.. they are so good to me.. there is no way they will suddenly change completely* *that they could never act like they dont know me at all and just want to escape my company..* that moment you feel most safe.. that is their trigger to flip out and blame you for something that is messed up with them, so they don't have to eeal woth it. They got that pattern down to an exact science.. we are juat along for the ride.
@Coppercoil pretty much.. it’s tiring.. I wish I could learn to be as passionate before so many people broke me in life.. my joy used to come from within, before others took pieces of it for themselves..
It’s like what do you do when you’ve got nothing left?
I can still write, but the difficulty is vastly increased by year in and year out of strifes and turmoil and relationships breaking down etc..