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Jexie Not sure if this will be helpful to you because I don't care about sex as such. When I say asexual, I mean inability to be sexually aroused at all. Like not being able to get off.
I really don't know what happened, it was strange. I blamed it on BCP but I was taking it before and still take it now so the reason must be elsewhere, maybe stress or chronic pain and physical issues that lasted for 6 months. First I went to a physiotherapist and had massages, then I started avoiding the news and controlling myself to not be that reactive to every BS I read or hear. I noticed that every time I felt rage and hate I felt it in my abdominal muscles and that had to affect muscles in my pelvis too. I kind of had to learn to be more chilled out and to not care because it turned out to be unhealthy to me. I truly don't know if it was related or just coincidence but I felt as if someone removed the part in my brain that is responsible for sexual arousal, romantic attraction, love and all that stuff. I even lost the ability to feel nostalgia and other more complex emotions.
Anyway, that itself didn't fix it, I eventually had to "force it" and I did it by deciding to watch porn, as weird as it sounds. It worked. Might be TMI but for the first time it wasn't about watching something because of the desire but watching to inspire the desire in the first place. It was like the body and mind forgot and had to relearn.
