So this is the last day of 2025

In my time zone it's almost 2 hours into it.

I am so ready to nap, but a crazy desire to say something.

What could I possibly have to say folks!!

As dumb as it sounds I expected more of myself, and I feel the overwhelming desire to just be without the ability to say anything.

Let's see, let's just see if I can shut the hell up and let some things sink in, and coming back not to make any deal out of it, but to be a basic person, talking about what's going on, my hopes, fears and all the inspiration built up over the time where I was being shut up, in the cozy womb, oh the secure place where one is like the baby not born yet, all snug and cozy in the belly of the woman you will see as the most important person of all people you'll ever know, that place.

I want to thank a few people here that mean a lot to me, Miram and Bexsy to name just 2, they are the shining lights here, and Lord knows there are other great people, but I am so thankful to them for having their light reach me, all the way over here, to gladden and hearten my path. Bless you two forever and ever, and all you good people my limited experience bars from naming.

I don't deserve any good from this place, I am a selfish person, and indeed my selfishness makes me sick to the stomach, and is the reason why I feel like I have to spend some serious time without stimuli, without thinking what I say matters to anyone else, it has to matter to me before it could possibly mean anything to anyone else.

Be good to yourselves people, if your doing what you do for others and not yourselves, you may be in a sore spot soon, be wise instead, and be right with yourself, and be a blessing to others as you know rightly of your own place in things.

For me I feel I need to take myself away for awhile before I can honestly take part as I wish to.