I really want to make some positive posts

Yes, you have a point. It was more when I was a bit younger when I did that, but yes maybe I should be happy for other people now. I’m jealous though, their lives seem so perfect, they’ve never done anything stupid@YoMomma

@Strongtea things aren't always what they seem

I suppose so, I just seem to say/do so many uncool dorky things where they don’t. I’m like so scared of getting into trouble or getting hurt that everyone thinks I’m really soft/lame. But I suppose things could be bad for them too@YoMomma

@Strongtea ah… sorry you feel that way..

It’s just always there, there’s just a whole load of people who’re always going to remember me for what I was like when we were growing up. I’m just in a bit of a low at the moment, thinking about it all. I’ll be alright soon@YoMomma

@Strongtea maybe you need to move out of town? Or apologize?

I do dream of moving away, but I found it really difficult when I was at uni, I missed my parents and weirdly my hometown really badly, I didn’t find the new friends I was wishing for (I did make friends there, but I found it hard getting close.)
I have tried apologising to some people (some of the girls I bullied, I can’t face the boys that I picked on incase they hit me) but it just seems that they don’t want to be around me. I’m really embarrassed about all that stuff and speaking directly to those people feels so hard. I kinda wish they were on here lol, it seems so much safer online. @YoMomma

I know you’re right though, your advice is always good, I’m just not strong enough sometimes to do the things I should@YoMomma