Sometimes I feel incredibly sad , suddenly it will occur to me that I’m never going to be in love again.

I’m never going to share myself with anyone who cares to be with me.
I have so many issues. Even casual sexual encounters seem impossible for me.
Sometimes I find myself in situations where I could engage with someone easily, they are there and available and all I need to do is basically reach out and make my desires known.
That’s when I feel the most vulnerable, that’s when I walk ( or run ) away..
leaving behind more regrets over what might have been..
it’s impossible for me now. My trauma won’t leave me alone for a few days or even hours..

It’s incredibly depressing