Short skirts, blouses, stalkings, make up, long hair
Stuff like this is what I don't wear
I am 114lbs, 5'2, black hair short, light complexion, wears lots of T-shirts and jeans and tennis shoes. Everything fits me too big, so I don't feel like an adult. It's been two years since I've been in love, I'm putting myself out there but to no avail.
Not that I'm speaking to anyone there is no point. Guys tend to say you'd be so much prettier if your hair was longer. If you smile too, pretty girls always should smile. As if I needed more reasons to hate me too.
I'm working on myself been going to therapy. My mental distress is calling me home more and more with each passing day. Things I once enjoyed are not enjoyable anymore. Things that used to make me happy make me smile but not with my eyes.
Another day gone, couldn't even function properly today. Trying to loose weight seems easier now that the stress is eating me up. The number on the scale seems larger and I am suffering from body dysmorphia bad. I see a huge person when I look in the mirror so it makes me feel like a big fat person.
I know a lot of people would say dear I would love to be in your body it's so perfect. No it's not.... no really it isn't.. I may look healthy but who knows what could be happening on the inside. I'm speechless sometimes and I don't always feel like speaking. I wonder how many people would notice if I just stopped talking?
Maybe if I just focus on work everything else would eventually fade out. It has to right? I don't know anymore but at this point I just don't care. Words cannot describe how I feel right now.
I am 114lbs, 5'2, black hair short, light complexion, wears lots of T-shirts and jeans and tennis shoes. Everything fits me too big, so I don't feel like an adult. It's been two years since I've been in love, I'm putting myself out there but to no avail.
Not that I'm speaking to anyone there is no point. Guys tend to say you'd be so much prettier if your hair was longer. If you smile too, pretty girls always should smile. As if I needed more reasons to hate me too.
I'm working on myself been going to therapy. My mental distress is calling me home more and more with each passing day. Things I once enjoyed are not enjoyable anymore. Things that used to make me happy make me smile but not with my eyes.
Another day gone, couldn't even function properly today. Trying to loose weight seems easier now that the stress is eating me up. The number on the scale seems larger and I am suffering from body dysmorphia bad. I see a huge person when I look in the mirror so it makes me feel like a big fat person.
I know a lot of people would say dear I would love to be in your body it's so perfect. No it's not.... no really it isn't.. I may look healthy but who knows what could be happening on the inside. I'm speechless sometimes and I don't always feel like speaking. I wonder how many people would notice if I just stopped talking?
Maybe if I just focus on work everything else would eventually fade out. It has to right? I don't know anymore but at this point I just don't care. Words cannot describe how I feel right now.
26-30, F
sounds like a compliment to me