Mmmmmmmmmmmmm

I write to keep my sanity, to express the feelings that is burning me inside, i feel hate, betrayal, dishonesty and shame. Where can i hide those feelings, i just can’t. I feel im slowly giving up my hopes and dreams, it was all lie, illusion, illness, it is like a drug i cant stop taking it. To feel something extraordinary and never get to feel it again is cruel punishment. Lord, dont you think if it was never meant for me, isnt it better to never let me taste it…