I went out for the sake of it. I guess I just needed out.

When you don't know where to go, but you need a change of scenery. When you want to talk to someone, but you can't reach out to just anyone. When you just want a break and a change of routine...
I think I got it, somehow.

But I got tired of being around a big crowd. It never really gave me rest, unless I'm with friends in an amusement park maybe. But such friends are kinda missing from life right now. And I still wanted to go out...I think I owed myself a date.

What do you do when you want to look for something real that is attractive but can't find it anywhere? A place, a feeling, a person, a hobby, a thing...or is it my own next goal? What even it is that I am really looking for?

Contentment? A reason to look forward to tomorrow? Happiness? Company?

Sometimes, it feels weird to even ask. But I feel it anyway. Sometimes, I just let myself feel.