I Write What I Feel

a memory

I sit out here in the cool night....
Just breathing....
Looking at the stars..
Feeling the vastness
And yet feeling so closed in.
There is no moon, although I've looked for one...
And sent up a silent lonely howl.
my heavy breaths, at first hurling out clouds of fog,
Now gentling  down to just a puff...

My heart hurts.
SO MUCH DAMN HURT....
 My eyes are tired  and swollen from crying. ..
I wipe the tears from my face with  my hand...
And my nose on my sleeve....
And shivering, I think......
DANG, running out without tissues. ...
One more  time I am not prepared. ...


Collected. .
 I once again. .
Enter hell.