It's weird when you are so in love with someone and they dont feel the same about you

And you spend years trying to get over them but they keep sucking you back and then they throw you away again. Over and over. Like your heart doesnt mean a damn thing to them. And it doesn't matter how sad you are or how many tears you cry. But eventually, it might take 5 years, like it did me, you suddenly realize that you aren't in love anymore. He can't hurt you by rejecting you or ignoring you cuz you don't care. The love has faded away. So i guess it was infatuation. Cuz real love never dies.