I finally did it.

I recently had an argument with my Ex nonbiological brother, and i was just telling him that i find it really hard to focus and concentrate and he straight up insulted me and said that i would rot while others were being sucessfull and he said he was giving me toxic motivation but i am a really sensitive person and i take things to heart seriously and i fought back and he kept insulting me and all i wanted was for him to appreciate me for once and he said i was always making it about me although i really didn't i barely talk to the group chat and i was always trying my best to make them feel comfortable and i always listened to then rant out but on that day he really crossed the line, he told me to grow up and stop being childish and he gave me a panick attack, he also made me cry worse then i had ever did before, he made me want to kill myself and he made me self harm, he used to be so kind and sweet but ever since the fight i started to become more afraid of everything and i realised that i couldn't let my guard down, but it really hurt seeing everyone slowly leaving me and saying they were tired of me and he insulted me and continued to gaslight me and make me feel useless and worthless. But after that i finally realised that he was the reason i was pulled down and he was just really toxic. so i left the group chat and i have been ghosting him but i don't kniw what is going to happen on teachers day because i have to see him on that day... i really hope i did well :)