The person i despise the most is me
I'm well aware of what type of person i am, indecisive, and down right stupid when I get my feelings involved.
Recently, i feel self-conscious and insecure whenever i think about my love life. I had a messy break up with my first boyfriend, and have yet to date another boy till this day. Sometimes, i say to myself i want him back, I'm not over him yet and maybe if we talk we can med things back together. But at times, i convince myself i don't need him, that I'm not suitable for a relationship and a responsibility i can't hold. My mind changes like the weather, i was beginning to grow frustrated at myself for always changing my mind.
I wasn't pretty, i had pimples, and my teeth were ugly and i wasn't even smart. So whenever i see myself in the mirror, i think 'would he still like me when i look like this?'
Then I'll get angry at myself for always thinking about him,(but not always). The relationship was only bad because of me, but now I'm the one still not completely over it.
I feel like i don't have the privilege to feel this way, what do you guys think?
Recently, i feel self-conscious and insecure whenever i think about my love life. I had a messy break up with my first boyfriend, and have yet to date another boy till this day. Sometimes, i say to myself i want him back, I'm not over him yet and maybe if we talk we can med things back together. But at times, i convince myself i don't need him, that I'm not suitable for a relationship and a responsibility i can't hold. My mind changes like the weather, i was beginning to grow frustrated at myself for always changing my mind.
I wasn't pretty, i had pimples, and my teeth were ugly and i wasn't even smart. So whenever i see myself in the mirror, i think 'would he still like me when i look like this?'
Then I'll get angry at myself for always thinking about him,(but not always). The relationship was only bad because of me, but now I'm the one still not completely over it.
I feel like i don't have the privilege to feel this way, what do you guys think?
