Is it bad that rn I don’t want to be a girl?

like I right this minute I don’t feel comfortable in my own body I’m born female and mainly go by she her and don’t mind they them but don’t want to be called he him or any male/ masculine pronouns. And usually it’s just like I don’t want to dress up in like a more feminine today and prefer to dress what some people consider more masculine but today it feels like I’m not in the right body and with my lover who is straight I don’t know what to do i feel very stressed and everything I can do to cover/hide my 🍒except a hot oversized hoodie hurts to do.. what do I do? Can someone help me..?

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CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

Try to figure out the root of this. Why is it happening? Is it because of periods? Have you gone through some trauma related to being a girl? Do you live in society where women are discriminated? Are you scared of men? Has it something to do with your appearance?

Ur1sub · 18-21

@CrazyMusicLover I am scared of men but I don’t think that would be why idk why I just don’t feel comfortable in my own body but I dont want to be male and it’s confusing

CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

@Ur1sub But why does the thought "I don't want to be male" even comes to your mind? Where does it come from?

I've hated my own body for uncountable times due to health issues, oftentimes related to female sex organs so for me it's logical that I feel uncomfortable in my body for obvious reasons and I wish I wasn't a woman but wishing to not being a woman doesn't automatically mean to wish to be a man.

Ur1sub · 18-21

@CrazyMusicLover Ik it doesn’t I was stating I didn’t want to be either

CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

@Ur1sub Why?

Ur1sub · 18-21

@CrazyMusicLover to avoid any unnecessary confusion

CrazyMusicLover · 31-35

@Ur1sub In relationship to other people? Because of what they expect from you because you are a woman?

Ur1sub · 18-21

@CrazyMusicLover they don’t have expectations bc in female he expects me to be loyal kind and honest but I’m scare to tell him bc what if this passes quickly