Is it bad that rn I don’t want to be a girl?

like I right this minute I don’t feel comfortable in my own body I’m born female and mainly go by she her and don’t mind they them but don’t want to be called he him or any male/ masculine pronouns. And usually it’s just like I don’t want to dress up in like a more feminine today and prefer to dress what some people consider more masculine but today it feels like I’m not in the right body and with my lover who is straight I don’t know what to do i feel very stressed and everything I can do to cover/hide my 🍒except a hot oversized hoodie hurts to do.. what do I do? Can someone help me..?