Overwhelming

I hate this feeling of pressure and it ruins the mood, i don't even know why im still bothered by what happened many days ago up to now, today I'll be having to do something but i don't feel like it anymore, although i don't want to keep feeling this negative emotion, it hurts my heart. I mean I'm not even sure if those people were talking badly about me, I'm not one to assume but it really hurt me as if they were the ones backstabbing me behind my back which im not entirely sure if it really is about me, I'm very nice and friendly to everyone and never judge them, it hurts me that people would think such things, and still nothing changes how i feel to know that people like these, still be so negative and judgmental especially behind others backs, i feel bad for the person they are either talking about, and i feel sad if they were talking about me.