Musings of a disembodied mind

Sometimes life is as simple as 2+2=4.

And then you learn about absolutes and the lack thereof.
You learn that any number divided by 0 implies a duality that can never exist, approaching the extremes on the positive and negative spectrum that cannot play nicely with each other.

In a world of confusion, looking for clarity is as fruitful and approaching nothing, and therefore approaching everything. For nothing can never exist, and neither can the infinite. One can only approach.

In one cubic feet of nothing contains more particles than all the stars in the observable universe. Is that really nothing? Sometimes I feel like the syntax error on a calculator plotting X=1/0.

Sometimes my brain just errors out, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’ve been trying to be better. But it seems as though any perceived progress is just a false perception of understanding.

I don’t know.

I’m trapped in the senkei.

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SW-User

I understand and hope this is a writing exercise in trying to explain your feelings; there is simpler and more emotive ways that may exist healthier. If we pine and throw our understandings into the concepts of duality without understanding them, you'll always end up at an emblematic void of no meaning. You are much better to let yourself feel.

Clarity is beautiful, but if you are going to use the lack of as means to torture you, I suggest going back to the drawing board. If you feel you will explain emotion through math or philosophy, try again. Both of those can give insights towards feeling again.

SW-User

@SW-User I allow myself to feel, I just find that a good kickstart to feeling is expression.

SW-User

@SW-User yes. I hope it leads too many. It was too mathematical for my loving, and if I listened to everyone who talks about removing of duality, I'd forget to feel.

MoonlightLullaby

I find so much sadness in your thoughts.
.... hopefully letting them out came with some catharsis. My mind is pretty intricate in its thought process as well, and I've felt like this before. It's a slippery slope towards apathy if you're not careful in your self critique. 🥀🖤

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SW-User

@MoonlightLullaby I usually don’t allow turmoil to dwell in my heart for extended periods, as it knows how to make itself at home. Sometimes it’s more of a struggle than at other time but it is what it is.

Stoic mode isn’t a good sign with me; the absence of feeling usually means I’ve disconnected, and to reconnect with life takes a bit of effort.

But all will be well, there is no reason to be overly concerned. The is no reason to not be concerned as well but that’s just how life is sometimes.

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SW-User

@MoonlightLullaby (nerd alert) I remember when I was younger I used to use this statement: “I need a palladium core for where my gear used to be” just signifying that I didn’t really want to feel all the things I felt.

For a long time I just would rather not feel, but I don’t want to go back to that.

fakable

yes. that's how consciousness works.

like a pendulum.
if you swing in one direction, your inertia will fly in the other direction.

it is possible to be at a resting point, but it is difficult.

SW-User

@fakable maybe torque? Instead of inertia, seining the other way. Since inertia is static. Or maybe I’ mover thinking it.

fakable

@SW-User
“Everything flows, out and in; everything has its tides; all things rise and fall; the pendulum‑swing manifests in everything; the measure of the swing to the right is the measure of the swing to the left; rhythm compensates.” The Kybalion

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is a metaphor.
some things are excluded from human perception and are only accessible to the mind through likenesses.

GeistInTheMachine · 31-35, M

I find solace in forgetting I exist.

SW-User

You will learn to see in the dark

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