My school life

So in our class im the class president i felt good until we take pictures my face always get blocked and not be seen im okay with that but it does hurt that i can't see myself and i always feel like im gonna fail or the answer is not right i don't feel that okay because a little while i ago when my best friend talks to my crush i felt that they were meant to be together but my bsf don't like him and i am starting to lose feelings for him the reason is i saw him holding a s girls hand then i found out that he my cousin and that my cousin punched his cousin so i think he doesn't like me for that or may think im like my cousin then my math teacher is my fav bc he always includes me hes like the only one who notice me im not saying that my other teachers doesn't notice me and i always feel like im just there and no one notices me but my math teacher behind does the only people who notice me is my classmates behind me and when i was crying they saw but when i didn't want to cry i will feel like an attention seeker bc the vp was also crying the people behind me only noticed not even my own bsf noticed me crying until the sergeant of arms noticed and my seatmate she noticed me and i saw our treasurer looking at me and the one who was far away from and the sergeant of arms asked why i cried i didn't give then an explanation bc i feel like they would just think im an attention seeker ty for reading (: