Postpartum.

Sucks really bad when you are going through postpartum depression and you can't seem to have anyone to for real talk to without judgement friend wise. I don't want to air my business but it sucks when you don't feel like you do enough and you’re such a horrible person to everyone. It's like evil attacks your whole body. Even with medicine. I just don't feel like I am ever good enough. Everyone asks if you’re okay and deep down you’re not but you smile and push through it anyways. 😢 It is nice to sit outside and reflect on my life and the choices I need to make for my self and family. Having the courage to ask for help is hard but I'm breaking inside I just don't show it.

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WaryWitchWandering · 36-40, F

I had terrible postpartum depression after the birth of my son. He had severe GERD and milk protein allergy. All he did was scream and cry and vomit, it was terrible.

I felt like a horrible mother to both him and my daughter (who was 2 at the time). And a non existent wife. I cried all the time and felt like i was truly going insane. It was the most horrible experience. I thought it was something I did to my son (until doctor figured it out). I kept telling my mom I thought maybe I rocked him too hard or damaged him in some way. I hated myself. Once we got him diagnosed and started working to heal him, I got back on my antidepressant and started slowly crawling out of the hole I was in.

And yes it sucks because people expect you to be so happy after giving birth… and then the guilt starts in. Like, why do I feel like this?!

I’m around to talk if you ever need to vent. I know how alone you may feel. Just know, you are more than enough and please ask for help from those around you if needed. Mama needs care too. ❤️

MarineBob · 56-60, M

So that is what i got

Buzzznut · 51-55, M

Hope it gets better

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