It kinda sucks when some do something nice for you but all you got of them are shitty memories.
I don't know I just realized I got shitty memories with a lot of people. It does bother me a little when I see them in pictures still together a decade later and they gather around on occasions and such but they never for once made me feel that I'm welcome among them. I was always the odd one out.
But at the same time I feel that maybe it's a good thing that I'm odd I don't know but I still haven't forgotten all the shit they put me through.
This is basically about my school mates. In 2020 they stepped in and helped me with a personal matter and it was a nice move to be fair and I appreciate it but that's it really they don't exactly like message me to know updates or anything and now we're back at being strangers.
That's also related to that feeling when people you know have figured their life out and started having their own families and all that stuff but you didn't even get near that. Don't get me wrong I don't wish them any harm I just can't forget what they put me through when I needed them the most and seeing them together reminds me of those days.
But at the same time I feel that maybe it's a good thing that I'm odd I don't know but I still haven't forgotten all the shit they put me through.
This is basically about my school mates. In 2020 they stepped in and helped me with a personal matter and it was a nice move to be fair and I appreciate it but that's it really they don't exactly like message me to know updates or anything and now we're back at being strangers.
That's also related to that feeling when people you know have figured their life out and started having their own families and all that stuff but you didn't even get near that. Don't get me wrong I don't wish them any harm I just can't forget what they put me through when I needed them the most and seeing them together reminds me of those days.
31-35, M
