I know everybody says "it'll pass" and "give it time", but if you're not happy now something has to happen now. It feels like you're living for everyone else and the future and totally missing right now. It's a very depressing thought, but it's a very real one, one that will help you grow as a person. I want to help you get through this because I know how it is to want the sweet void and how hard it is to keep pushing. You need something to enjoy in the moment and feel no regret about.
I know we haven't been talking for long, but I care about you and I want you to be happy. You're always so fun when you're happy. =)
If you can think of anything you enjoy, anything at all, just do it. Don't think too hard about it, just go and do it

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I wish I could offer some words of comfort....sending hugs....simply coz I hate to think of people hurting and feeling so down on themselves x🤗