I Like to Write About How I Feel

I was twelve years old the first time I tried to kill myself. Not for typical reasons. I didn't have the life of an average 12 year old. I'd think at school ...jump so you don't have to go home. I prayed I wouldn't wake up anymore.
I saw no way to escape the severe abuse that I suffered ..so the idea of death became my solace. I had no one and nothing .Id dream my way into sunny fields and beautiful places in my mind because I couldn't take anymore.
No one loved me . I was so alone and I still am. Im too hurt to be in anything but shock.