One day they will hear my story..

Everyday i try to stay positive, these thoughts come to my head of what i been through in the beginning

stages of my abuse. I met my ex and he was so nice, my sister passed away and took the opportunity

to move in my ex. We even got to move to a new building. Lord, my ex started showing his colors , the

abuse got so bad. he destroyed my apartment each day was worse. Ill never forget when i tried to run

and he dragged me from the steps to my apartment. ill never forget the abuse, when he would run to the

power box and shut off all the lights to scare me and beat me in the dark. The time he tried to set the

the house on fire and said he was gonna take me with him.. he would run to the fridge and start throwing

all my food out.. im talking he painted the whole apartment with food, at one point he cut all the wires

and threw all my stuff out the window, He ran into the bathroom and broke the door off and had me in the bathtub , choking me and i was begging for him to stop

he would laugh and keep me up for hours , hours, no food no water, until he was done.. it would last about 7 hours max .once i asked for water and he pissed in a bottle and because i didnt want to drink it ,

he threw at me.. he burned holes on my sneakers and had me walk to the store like that so he could buy me new ones . no one

stopped me but just stared at me. i had a big hoodie and i look distressed... he would talk

about everything , things didnt even make sense

he was mad that i didnt wanna be with him. and felt i took advantage of him , but he was abusing me bad .

I was so scared and i was pregnant at this time.. I had been trying

to plan escape.. and i was told if i would scream i would die.. God , i dont know how im alive today,

I almost lost custody of my daughter because he was sending pictures to my daughters dad when he would break in my apartment and trap me for days.

i ended up letting my daughter live with her dad and he fought to take her away from me.The courts never let her come back to me because she was already living with her dad and his mom helped him so she was in a good space..

He made my life a living hell and blamed me.. thats what a narcissist would do.

i didnt want to leave my apartment, i just wanted peace and rest and i would try to tell him that he was acting crazy . I had to stay in a shelter at one point because i could go back to my place he would break in through the fire escape.. it was very scary waking up to my window from the last floor .. god.



My neighbors at one point got involved and wanted to beat him up but i said no because i was scared of

losing my apartment..so i was told i needed to leave because i was causing chaos and they had drugs to sell and i was messing up the business lol imagine that..


i was scared of everything..I got this man locked up about 20 times , every time he

got out he hunted for me... Till this day the police come visit me behind an active order of protection.

idk how imma be able to write

this in a book. To think of these things bother me and fill me with rage. I hope that i can put this altogether and get past these feelings.