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frostyflower · 36-40, F
The poly thingy: a longer short story. sorry, i'm really not good at brevity.
My high school boyfriend and I dated for almost 3 years. I was his 3rd kiss and his first f***. He was my second, though I had fooled around with mutual M with several other BFs prior. I never felt a sense of ownership or jealousy, and at one point we were talking and sharing late at night and I told him I wanted him to experience more, especially since he's really only been with me. We had an open relationship for 5 or 6 months, as long as the new person was approved i advance by the other. He and I made out with a good friend of ours, the two of them grew closer and he broke up with me for her. I wasn't mad that he picked her, just sad that he left me over it. The whole point of Polyamory is recognizing that you are capable of loving, whole-heartedly, more than one person at a time. We dated again a while after that but it was nearing college and we were going very different directions, so it fizzled within a week or two of college starting. I wanted to explore and I wanted him to be happy, and a thousand miles is a lot.
In college, i had a hard time finding anyone to love me back with the fullness I brought to a relationship. everyone I dated was emotionally attached to an ex. I gave up on the idea of being poly largely out of exhaustion from just trying to find ONE. Then I was in the honeymoon phase with my husband, which lasted 3+ years, and for that time, I didn't feel like I wanted or needed anything else. So I thought the polyamory was a passing phase.
Then i started having difficulties regarding low drive, about 7 years ago, and the only thing that helped me was reading smut novels. But the interest in female and other companionship was really the force behind the low labido. I had been so faithful I refused to so much as fantisize about another person until then. He and I started watching porn together, my tastes are far more risque than his, but he seems to like that i'm like this.
more to come
My high school boyfriend and I dated for almost 3 years. I was his 3rd kiss and his first f***. He was my second, though I had fooled around with mutual M with several other BFs prior. I never felt a sense of ownership or jealousy, and at one point we were talking and sharing late at night and I told him I wanted him to experience more, especially since he's really only been with me. We had an open relationship for 5 or 6 months, as long as the new person was approved i advance by the other. He and I made out with a good friend of ours, the two of them grew closer and he broke up with me for her. I wasn't mad that he picked her, just sad that he left me over it. The whole point of Polyamory is recognizing that you are capable of loving, whole-heartedly, more than one person at a time. We dated again a while after that but it was nearing college and we were going very different directions, so it fizzled within a week or two of college starting. I wanted to explore and I wanted him to be happy, and a thousand miles is a lot.
In college, i had a hard time finding anyone to love me back with the fullness I brought to a relationship. everyone I dated was emotionally attached to an ex. I gave up on the idea of being poly largely out of exhaustion from just trying to find ONE. Then I was in the honeymoon phase with my husband, which lasted 3+ years, and for that time, I didn't feel like I wanted or needed anything else. So I thought the polyamory was a passing phase.
Then i started having difficulties regarding low drive, about 7 years ago, and the only thing that helped me was reading smut novels. But the interest in female and other companionship was really the force behind the low labido. I had been so faithful I refused to so much as fantisize about another person until then. He and I started watching porn together, my tastes are far more risque than his, but he seems to like that i'm like this.
more to come