Sam,
You are a unique person!
I too agree with your mindset, i always say " I AM SIMPLE, YET COMPLICATED". AS an overthinker, and over achiever, i too only what wich is right to help others, yet alone i 😔 am..but may i encourage you to tell you I feel your pain and i am entreated to say I like you! Your words like poetry, your thoughts like water..pour them out, and dont give up! You are awesome! Stay awesome my friend! Good thibgs will come out of this ..not sure when nor how, but dont give up! Tuff times dont last, tuff people do. You have victory ahead. Hold on just a little while longer, its gonna be ok! Hugs