Do you avoid people who have “tragic” pasts?

I wonder often if I repel people from knowing me deeply because of my past.

Tragic and traumatic are words I use subjectively, my issues aren’t any better or worse than anyone else’s. We’re all on our journey.

But in order to know me, you’d have to know about the prevalent pain of my past. And I don’t cry about my past, I’m thankful for who it made me. But it’s been a long time since anyone has even asked me about myself irl and on here you can only share into the void.

I think I have a pretty great story! Amazing adventures! I just lived in a van and traveled for a year with my child and not even my “friends” wanted to hear about it.

It’d take patience with me. A long walk or stargazing all night to understand how much I love life.

Yet I think people hear about my family being dead and just stay away. I don’t think people want to face me.

I never was popular, nor do I want to be. But if even one person took interest, took the time and effort, they might see me. But these are just tatters of dreams of love and feeling cared for again.

I don’t know or worry about what people see, but I know nobody sees me.