I don’t think their is anyone out there for me

Sometimes one random disappointment can weigh on you so much because of the ongoing disappointment pattern.
Can't say I relate to the date disappointments, but I can however relate to relationship disappointment in general. I've been together with my husband for quite a long time, can't say it ever gets easier. Even when you're in a good relationship, you often disappoint eachother and nothing ever really changes merely because you want it to. I've been accepting things the way they are a lot over the past few years, could say I'm done trying too.
About a year ago, we agreed to plan a date night once month to make some time for eachother and our relationship. The concept was quite good: once a month I organize it, and the other month he does. He organized it once, then work got in between a few times (from him) and then suddenly it died out again.
I'm pretty sure if I'll have a conversation about it again that he'll just say "but you're not organizing one either... just organize one if you want one..."
I'd be happy with 25% of that fairytale romance being real, but even that is hard to find.

I think you try to Set your intention to have that someone but don't put any expectations where and when to find him. Go ahead and accomplish your dreams about and then if whoever you put your intentions to have appears then open your heart .
No matter how disappointing we got from people never ever close your heart in my experience I did that I'm no longer suffering yet not sure if I could have feelings again. Keep your heart wide open love comes in many different shapes as that what makes as humans 🤗💗.

Good luck accomplishing your dreams.

Can’t see why . Your a very attractive pleasant lady 🙂 don’t despair,it’s just a date .

I have been rejected by every girl I ever liked and I don't even try anymore to get a girl. I gave up.

Who says we have a have a partner🤷‍♂️ just have friends that way no stress