Uh-Oh, I Did A Thing

Brought some stress onto myself yesterday/this early morning. I texted my old boss something light and a little silly to try and spark some conversation and he has yet to respond almost a whole day later. I'm trying not to put too much stock in the short time frame because he doesn't owe me an immediate response. Nobody does. But it does heighten my anxiety the longer this goes on. And I didn't need to text him by any means. Last time we spoke face-to-face, right after he fired me, one of the last things I had said was that I didn't want this to be the last time we ever spoke to each other. He had responded with a gentle it doesn't have to be. And I've held onto that. He never before has said something he doesn't mean. He's not a bullshitter. And about ten minutes prior to saying that, he was showing me the anger and distress I had caused him. He wasn't really in the mind set to bullshit me anyway. He could have told me to fuck right off, and he never did. The more I talk through this right now with myself, the more at ease I feel. We haven't had any form of communication since early February, he could just be thinking things over. I can appreciate that no response is a response, but I'd like to remain hopeful. But the longer I hold onto that hope, the larger my regret and embarrassment will be when a certain reality sets in that he may never want to talk again. While that's something I can also appreciate, it makes me feel even more ridiculous and embarrassed to have texted him in the first place.