I thought perhaps

That I had found someone that had a mutual need to ease their loneliness. We hit it off. Had many things in common. Neither quite ready to change our situation, but still needing a shoulder to lie on. Not a sexual thing, but a mutual support mechanism that potentially could grow. There are certainly sexual undertones and flirting, which is fun.

It seems I was wrong and seem to be going down the same road I have gone down before. One sided and the only interest is mine. I thought we were on the same page, but I guess not.

Maybe I should be pushing the sexual thing more. Maybe I am not clingy enough. Maybe I am too clingy. Maybe I initiate conversations too much and should just let things go. I feel invisible once again. Ignored. I have never been a control freak, but maybe that is my problem? I thought we both knew what we were looking for and it seems that I was wrong. I guess I will just return to my normal existence and hope for the best.

No this was not here...I am just venting here because it is safe.