I thought perhaps

That I had found someone that had a mutual need to ease their loneliness. We hit it off. Had many things in common. Neither quite ready to change our situation, but still needing a shoulder to lie on. Not a sexual thing, but a mutual support mechanism that potentially could grow. There are certainly sexual undertones and flirting, which is fun.

It seems I was wrong and seem to be going down the same road I have gone down before. One sided and the only interest is mine. I thought we were on the same page, but I guess not.

Maybe I should be pushing the sexual thing more. Maybe I am not clingy enough. Maybe I am too clingy. Maybe I initiate conversations too much and should just let things go. I feel invisible once again. Ignored. I have never been a control freak, but maybe that is my problem? I thought we both knew what we were looking for and it seems that I was wrong. I guess I will just return to my normal existence and hope for the best.

No this was not here...I am just venting here because it is safe.

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saintsong · 41-45, F

You sound like me when I was 19..... I realized that I had a God shaped hole in my heart to cure the loneliness that only worship could repair. A true agape Love deep and true and far reaching! The ONLY ONE I COULD LEAN ON, not man or woman, they can't save you! There are so many reasons why we do what we do in the name of love... But we can't love others until we love God first and then love others like we love ourselves...I learned there was no going back, but there is a passing through!!! And if you choose God like only He knows how to solve all of your problems and heal your heart and soul, Like no one else in this world can, then I can honestly say that you'll be okay and better days are just around the bend! If you want you could listen to my play list on youtube under Chantal Bossert My Story Sung By Like Minded Musicians it's a long list and the music is mediocre, but it's about the message, the story, the words the truths, the helpful lyrics. the good advice that's all!

PoetryNEmotion · F

Reality check time. Your marriage is not a trap. You make excuses. Even a mouse can choose whether to grab the cheese or not. If you are unhappy, then make a change. If neither of you do, you will still be feeling this way for the rest of your lives. Can you live like that? The fact that you are anonymous says a lot too. Online "support" as you want it is really bottom of the barrel. Real people make changes to be happy. I dare you to live a full life. Course you won't. You are not courageous. Any other questions?

AnonymousConfessor · M

@PoetryNEmotion you could be right. This is only a spot for me to vent. Not looking for your support or anyone else's. My life is what I have made it.

PoetryNEmotion · F

@AnonymousConfessor I speak from experience. Freedom sings. You have many long, unhappy years ahead of you. You are used to it. The devil you know versus the possible future....Adios.

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